Prophecy Of The Suicide King

i send a whisper thru the winds of truth
and raise my middle finger to time
blow a kiss to the clouds
and wish the sun was mine

the ocean moving under
the myst inside my lungs
the promise of forever
and never being done

the everlasting kiss
that will never be again
god above and all i love
i pray, i say amen

the ceiling moves much closer
when the clock does taunt you so
the shadows on the wall
will never care what thoughts you keep below

and when i wake tomorrow
in the spite of prayers i send
i'll know it's just the start
of what is soon to be the bitter end

i wish i had a love
that i could hold to make me lost
so i could kiss this all goodbye
so i'd be warm inside the frost

that broken hearts do feel
when winter gets inside and moves
spring inside the eyes of thee
who heals eternal wounds

oh, all i ever wanted
was to love and feel her heart
king and queen, oh, every dream
i'll ever have will fall apart
© 2004


wow john that is a beautiful one
Posted 9/2/2004 12:39 PM by LeavesBeginToFall

I Love You by Sarah McLachlan

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By Sarah McLachlan
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I Love You

I have a smile
stretched from ear to ear
to see you walking down the road

we meet at the lights
i stare for a while
the world around disappears

just you and me
on this island of hope
a breath between us could be miles

let me surround you
my sea to your shore
let me be the calm you seek

oh, and every time i'm close to you
there's too much i can't say
and you just walk away

and i forgot
to tell you
i love you
and the night's
too long
and cold here
without you

i grieve in my condition
for i cannot find the strength to say i need you so

oh, and every time i'm close to you
there's too much i can't say
and you just walk away

and i forgot
to tell you
i love you
and the night's
too long
and cold here
without you

i love love. haha
and i like y our xanga.
<3hannah
Posted 8/30/2004 1:24 AM by We_Used_To_Dance

"there's a gap in between now and tomorrow and i'm going to fill it with beer" - john kilpatrick (genius)

Above

they say that i'm lost, that i'll never be found
that i've left for the skies with no eyes on the ground
they are right, they speak truth when they speak that of me
fuck them all, fuck them all because i still believe

and i bleed for my purpose, the worthless of worlds
anybody who ever has burned, who was hurled
thru the darkness with nothing to hold, who turned cold
who just needed a reason to keep it all moving, behold

when i speak you will know you were wrong
you will not know the words to the song
you will not sing along
and because of that fact i will smile
while watching the sun as it sets your denial

so fuck what you thought because i never cared
when you said i was lying and said i was scared
be prepared for the future, i'll put it right thru all your eyes
when i'm dead, best believe every word is to rise

and you said i was careless and stupid
for acting against all your reasons, so ruthless
indeed that is just what i did and i loved it
so fuck you and your fucking world, i'm above it
© 2004

...that's right...feel that shit...

Immortality

a permanent knot in my throat, tears just ready to drop
years just ready to waste me, forget me you will not
just come to my grave when it rains, you'll be saved
live your life, kiss your knife, drive the night and be brave

when i move i move quick, i've no thought, just a feeling
believe is tattooed on my wrist, never kneeling
to guilt or to truth or to fear or to law
i'm the realest, the realest that you ever saw

and i claw at the clouds, i will find my way out
i will rest in the heavens and never fall down
what i do now will echo in time
i'll be here still as i leave this whole world behind
© 2004

life is a waste of my time as time is a waste of my life - john kilpatrick

A Fate Of Pain

you want me? i'm here, come and get me, right now
you can save all your knives as the old ones have not been pulled out
come and strike me and see if it hurts
i'll compare it to what's come before and i'll tell you what's worse

sticks and stones, broken bones, broken soul
ask my body if it's really scared of what your hands do hold
i was told once to never be scared
now i'm lost, now a cross between broken/prepared

when you try i will look in your eyes and i'll laugh
because you aren't built for what comes with the wrath
and as you walk away i will tell you, i'll say
"try again when your fate is your pain, your decay"
© 2004

Waiting At The Sea

my soul is chained to yours
the one in the middle
the chain that braces the others
and shows them where to set themselves
and with all the other chains
pulling at your grace
you can't notice the one
that would never hurt you
so sad is the dark
saying goodnight to the sun
dreaming with the angels
i've seen your face in a crowded room full of wings
and i can't move thru the sea
the waves will not move
i just sit there and hope
and i wonder when you will wash ashore
© 2004

2 Dante Quotes For You About Me

there is no greater grief than to remember days of joy when misery is at hand

the more perfect a thing is, the more susceptible to good and bad treatment it is

The Origin Of A Tear

i'm the only one who can hear me now
i notice the dark with a light right in front of my face
it's horrible to have such a mind
the way it thinks
it's so sad
i send a sarcastic "thank you"
in a prayer full of tears to god
a toast to things we throw away
a punch in the face and a knife in the heart
the pain of eyes glued to the ceiling
the words scarred upon a vein on fire
the breath it takes to whisper "hallelujah"
these things make up the salt and water
that falls from your eyes
every time you remember
that everything dies
© 2004

Nice song... one of my favorites actually... And nice poem. And sorry about before...
Posted 8/23/2004 4:48 AM by secrets_unfolded

Goodnight To The Sun

i'm breathing and i'm seeing clearly such things
that i never believed i would see and with wings
built of truth i do fly, i do soar, watch me go
i set fire to past, ashes fall down below

i have grown and i've learned not to care, i do dare
death and time, i will tear them apart, simple rhymes
simple minds know me not, they forgot that they never remembered
they think not and they do not drink, rot, cut, sever

whatever does tear them to pieces
i have but love in my heart, it does bleed
and it sees what is good and what needs to be done
i'm the sky when the moon says goodnight to the sun
© 2004

"i have grown and i've learned not to care, i do dare

death and time, i will tear them apart"

Gorgeous...
Posted 8/19/2004 3:55 AM by secrets_unfolded

"i have grown and i've learned not to care, i do dare death and time, i will tear them apart, simple rhymes simple minds know me not, they forgot"

"i have but love in my heart, it does bleed

and it sees what is good and what needs to be done i'm the sky when the moon says goodnight to the sun"

My fav parts I love it it's beautiful like your mind heart soul body smile eyes i one word like YOU
Posted 8/19/2004 4:28 AM by M1ZZUND3RZT00D

hey thanks for wishin me happy birthday...i dont even know you and you did that for me. thanks. by the way your poetry is pretty good. holla at me. o n e -traci-
Posted 8/19/2004 3:33 PM by Iris_Paradise85

wow...I really like your site and your wonderful words. I hope that you don't mind me subscribing to you...
Posted 8/20/2004 11:01 AM by Nightdust

...Indifference...by Pearl Jam

i will light the match this morning
so i won't be alone
watch as she lies silent
for soon light will be gone

i will stand arms outstretched
pretend i'm free to roam
i will make my way
through, one more day in hell

how much difference does it make?
how much difference does it make?

i will hold the candle
'til it burns up my arm
i'll keep takin' punches
until their will grows tired

i will stare the sun down
until my eyes go blind
i won't change direction
and i won't change my mind

how much difference does it make?
how much difference does it make?
how much difference...

i'll swallow poison
until i grow immune
i will scream my lungs out
'til it fills this room

how much difference
how much difference
how much difference does it make?
how much difference does it make?

The Scientist by Coldplay

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...the scientist...

come up to meet you
tell you i'm sorry
you don't know how lovely you are
i had to find you
tell you i need you
tell you i set you apart
tell me your secrets
and ask me your questions
oh, let's go back to the start
running in circles
coming up tails
heads on a silence apart

nobody said it was easy
it's such a shame for us to part
nobody said it was easy
no one ever said it would be this hard

oh, take me back to the start

i was just guessing
at numbers and figures
pulling your puzzles apart
questions of science
science and progress
do not speek as loud as my heart
tell me you love me
come back and haunt me
oh, and i rush to the start
running in circles
chasing our tails
coming back as we are

nobody said it was easy
oh, it's such a shame for us to part
nobody said it was easy
no one ever said it would be so hard

i'm going back to the start

ooOOOoooooooo
ahhOOOooooooo
ooOOOoooooooo
ooOOOoooooooo


MMM..HMMMMMMm..AWWW I MiSS yOu JOHN :)....RacheL n I ARe WAitng on the OutSIde :)
Posted 8/12/2004 1:47 PM by ReDSnOWFLakE

I Remember Us There

i remember your eyes when our lips broke away
i remember the feeling, remember the day
i remember you pressed up so gently on me
i remember the stars that hung over the sea

i remember when you said you couldn't again
i remember the feeling of falling and then
i remember the words that you said, i could tell
i remember the flowers i put in that shell

i remember you walking and leaving me there
i remember you walking away as i stared
i remember you now, i remember the kiss
i remember the honey you left on my lips

i remember i knew that you'd never forget
i remember the words, every last one you said
i remember, you rest in my dreams and my prayers
i remember we kissed at the sea, we were there
© 2004

I think this is one of my favs you're getting better and better
Posted 8/17/2004 3:19 AM by CrimsonPoetry

This IS my favorite. Aside from the one he wrote for me... and Tragedy Curse which I hope to hell is on here. (August 2nd, 2009 @ 5:39 PM)

Love by The Smashing Pumpkins

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By The Smashing Pumpkins
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...love...

to my mistakes
to my mistakes of cowardice
she shimmy shakes the jimmy jakes of consequence
born of the airs and dues
my airs of madness do declare
that it's ok, it's love
it's what you wanted to see
it's who you wanted to be
for what you needed to need
she'll make it up
love, it's who you know
machine gun blues
her vacant rush is so steel
i'm unaware, lost inside your visions
i got mine too over
i got mine and i got you

cuz i know you, you're love
it's what you wanted to see
it's who you wanted to be
for what you needed to need
she'll make it up
love, it's who you know
can i look up to you as you look down on me?
can i feel in to you as you felt in to me?
i can't help what you see
i can't help but to be
for what i needed to need
she'll make it
love, it's who you know

Fall In Light

fall into light, speak of things no one knew
no one cared about, i put the truth into you
and i never mistook who i was, i just ran
and i turned out to be who i am, who i am

is not wrong, is not lying, not dead and not dying
alive and forever, so sacred and flying
i love and with her i would never deceive
i've a million one hearts, i can't make one believe?

see, forever will come, i'll be there when it does
i do bleed now and time is to drink of my blood
every word, every whisper, what you never thought
all these feelings, what's spoken, what's lost

what is broken, what cost does a soul have to pay to see sun?
i see rays but each day i'm afraid of what comes
i'm afraid what i've done is too turn out so wrong
i'm afraid that in heaven my wings won't belong

i'm afraid for the future, for all and for me
for the hearts that are blind, for the hearts that can see
i've no reasons, i've love, i am void of all care
all i know of is heaven and i will be there
© 2004

hey nooow, i just got back from the beach today...a week in heaven...it makes the other 358 days out of the year worth it...i just got home from work and i got a bottle of wine and my reds and i feel like talking about some stuff...so here you go...happiness comes in small doses and you can't see shooting stars if you don't care how beautiful the ocean sky is...a kiss is not just a kiss...that's bullshit and whoever said it was a fucking idiot...a felt a kiss that changed the world...there is a white dove in the center of the cross...and this is a gift to you...her eyes widened and her soul told me it was sorry...she felt the forever in us...this always happens...the ocean is a different world...it's perfect...it's not like this one we crash into when we fall back down...there's no pain at the ocean...the world is your oyster...pun intended...took you a second didn't it?..after a while of being compared to jesus your brain starts to believe it...i got an "hey, eddie vedder" last night too...that's acceptable too...both are great men...i didn't think that kids in high school now still new about pearl jam...that concert changed my life...july 9th 2003...madison square garden...if four people can make a concrete stadium move like an ocean wave then anything's possible...if i can have someone see in me what i never could...then i believe in the world again...and this happened...and it happened at the ocean...it's gonna be a glorious day...


captain weirdy pants, you know i miss you like bob. you make this rockin world go round and someday soon i'll be needin to drive up to go for a post-of-at-least-you-work-round of jake's cause you know i smile whenever i think of you ;)
Posted 8/8/2004 11:32 PM by LeavesBeginToFall

I'd Love To Smile

little does one know one knows about nothing
roses do fall, we don't see them while running
we trip and and we all wonder why, we get up
and start running again, will we ever let up?

it gets sunny and then it starts raining, we moan
about cold then complain when it's hot, we are so
fucking stupid, i wish we could love and be kind
but i won't see that happen, i'm wasting my time

so i pray and i wish for the day that my dream will exist
when the sun shines on me, cuts thru all of the myst
when the world is a much better place
you will see me, a smile burned onto my face
© 2004



That is awesome. Mind if I subscribe? Stop by my site and give me your POV on some of my junk. Great work though. I like the emotion that you put into it.
Posted 8/1/2004 6:06 PM by Sacred_Rose_of_Stone

beautiful
Posted 8/4/2004 3:03 PM by gods_baby_angel

john haven't talked 2 u in a while, wanna let u no wahts happening.......as if u care.........i found true love......and i don't think it's gonna break my hart this time......maybe ur ex gurlfriend will cum around...maybe she won't ...but i wanna say i'm here for u no matter what, and i just wanna say everything u told me was true....some1 did cum along and blow me away liek u said they would........and i wanna say rite now that i'm sorry i stop beleiving and i'm sorry i doubted u........this has been a long message, so i'll let u get back to me on it alrite?
l8a dawg!
i'm out!

Posted 8/7/2004 10:08 PM by kAnDi_KrIsSy