Thus I Was

alright, know this, approach all this rage and just listen
you pray to be close in proximity, this is admission
to all that is true, i have heard i am jesus
you hear that for so long, you start to believe it

i speak every word as if i am to die
after watching the energy move thru the sky
and i never once lied, who could tell such a story?
who speaks of such peace and has dreams oh, so gory?

it's me, how i hate how i changed
i can change back again
until then, oh, the pain
with a sword in my sleep and the demons that scare
i am ready, oh, born to be damned, so prepared

for what comes, for what runs thru the blood, i can smile
i do and i laugh all the time but oh, while
i'm falling asleep all the peace leaves from me
and i pray that i don't wake from sleep, don't you see?

if you saw in my head you would wish you were dead
you would pity but i do not want that, i want love instead
and i want of a heart that can see thru the fog
i just want that one heart that does feel what is gone

but i'll never be lucky, not lucky like those
who feel nothing but still girls accept every rose
as i go just remember the realest that was
that one lightning that struck
lived in truth and was fucked
© 2004


... i'm sorry i've been absent from your poetry, hon ... .. ... you have such talent, though, and such love inside to give ... and you're still so young (i know that doesn't help) ... and this life has so much laying before you to grasp and live ... please trust that somewhere, an amazing woman is waiting for you to notice her ... *hugs*

~ the angel
Posted 10/7/2004 9:30 AM by gods_baby_angel

JOHn..why R u SOoo fucKinG GOoD...huh?!?!?!miSSs u loTz<3

Megz

Posted 10/13/2004 12:54 PM by ReDSnOWFLakE

shit. and that's all i gots to say bout this one. you know i'm your #1 fan. well, if you didn't know, now you do. rach
Posted 11/6/2004 8:03 PM by LeavesBeginToFall

Your really good John.
Nicole.
Posted 11/28/2004 3:26 PM by Pledge_Nico

There IS a girl waiting for you to notice her.... There ARE girls there are girls waiting for you to come back there are girls waiting for you to stop wishing death upon yourself, wishing they could ie with you, wishing they could be near you or atleast a couple thousand miles closer...

There is a girl by the window
There is a girl in dispare
There is a girl with a rope round her neck
There is a girl made to care

This little girl has no hope left
This little girl's scared to die
This little girl wasn't made to forget
This little girl's ment to cry

That little girl is alone now
She's been alone fo a while
That little girl who is 15 years old
You made that little girl smile
Posted 1/10/2005 11:23 PM by CrimsonPoetry

...
Posted 8/31/2005 2:12 PM by In_Relief

What About You?

oh, i can speak many words, many verbs
many cursed walk the earth, stuck it hurt, what it's worth
is a day that is never to come, i will never be done
i'll forever be lost in the dream of the sun

drink ten beers just to sleep late at night
and i give you the words straight from bob, "shit aint right"
what is love but what's lost for who truly deserves it
a rose buried deep in the dirt, do observe this

i died but i rose up again and i smiled
but happiness lasts for a little, a while
has passed and i think of the past, i remember
the feeling of death, like a deep black december

i severed the chords to the past, in my blood
i have love, i have pain but i cut out the drugs
gone insane if you haven't yet figured that out
fuck the world, straight from me, yes indeed
have you figured that out?

my heart's bigger now, bleeds and it drowns
and it wakes up despite all the prayers that fall down
where this goes is a beautiful place in the clouds
when i'm gone i'll look down and be glad i got out

there is hurt in the hours we move, if you know
then i'm happy that others are feeling me so
in the end all that's left is what's real, what is true
i have figured that out, so now what about you?
© 2004

That One Day

Currently Playing
White Pony
By Deftones
see related
- feiticeira


i seek a peace only dreamed of when dreaming of love
only held in one's arms when one's grave has been dug
i believe in such peace, i am each one of you
who has fallen to pieces and bleeds for the truth

what of me? destiny, destined, free of the ways
of the thoughtless that conquer the earth every day
can you see me from so far down low?
i'm up high, i will die and you won't even know

but the echo, it bounces off all that i pray for
i wait for escape and i wait for the day shores
will wash at my feet with the promise i made
so i fall asleep peaceful and trust in that day
© 2004

oy vey
Posted 9/30/2004 3:29 AM by anonymous

In The Pale Moon Light

Currently Playing
Broken
By Nine Inch Nails
see related
- help me i am in hell







maybe we could hold on believe and be well
that is so hard to see first believing myself
has to happen to me as i happen to think
that i'm trapped in between hell and wrapped in my dreams
happens fast how we fall
to get up or to crawl
takes a heart and a soul
that has been thru it all
what becomes of a night neverending
is this
i have wasted my time
time now wastes me and sits
heavy still, every will has it's way
every word has it's say
every moon disappears, every day
there's a chance but i'd rather just dream of what was
because pain is forever and all comes at once
just a dance with the devil, we've dance many nights to the dawn
went our separate ways but tonight lingers on
and i'm sure i will see him in truth
we will dance, me and him, we will dance again soon
© 2004


Hey I'm in your "A Voice is a Terrible Thing to Waste" blogring. I was just saying hi and since you like poetry, I have some posted at www.xanga.com/cogentpoetry. I have a new book of poetry coming out in December called
"The American Way of Death."

-Adam Burmeister

Posted 9/22/2004 8:38 PM by aburmeister

Asleep

and when i lay me down to sleep
i beg to not awake
tomorrow is another day
tomorrow i can't take

and i wish there was another way
but i am lost in this
down the path to nowhere fast
in search for someone's kiss

i broke myself, i bleed my veins
upon the pages read
the blood will clot, the thoughts will be forgotten
i will then be dead

remember when i said whatever words
when i did say them
they were truth and so was i
and i did not betray them

time does waste me
i do waste my time
oh, such a waste
but i do live with speed
you never moved like me
you do not taste

the gravity when flying past
the dark and all that shines
you do not feel the pull
of my own world and yours combined

again i beg tomorrow never comes
just let me fall so deep
and let me have my dreams forever
let me stay asleep
© 2004


hmm...a nice longgggggg nap...we all wish for that...not to awaken at times...great read phoenix...
Posted 9/1/2004 7:24 PM by anonymous

thats a really nice poem. well just hittin up your site......by the way....i love the song. o n e -traci-
Posted 9/2/2004 3:51 PM by Iris_Paradise85

i see your never changing. its been quite a while.
Posted 9/4/2004 7:56 AM by revolting

very nice...I like your music in the background too!
Posted 9/4/2004 1:42 PM by Nightdust

i like your profile quote: 'as i am i will be so'

i find that to be true.

Posted 9/6/2004 10:58 AM by Dominic_Ville

Prophecy Of The Suicide King

i send a whisper thru the winds of truth
and raise my middle finger to time
blow a kiss to the clouds
and wish the sun was mine

the ocean moving under
the myst inside my lungs
the promise of forever
and never being done

the everlasting kiss
that will never be again
god above and all i love
i pray, i say amen

the ceiling moves much closer
when the clock does taunt you so
the shadows on the wall
will never care what thoughts you keep below

and when i wake tomorrow
in the spite of prayers i send
i'll know it's just the start
of what is soon to be the bitter end

i wish i had a love
that i could hold to make me lost
so i could kiss this all goodbye
so i'd be warm inside the frost

that broken hearts do feel
when winter gets inside and moves
spring inside the eyes of thee
who heals eternal wounds

oh, all i ever wanted
was to love and feel her heart
king and queen, oh, every dream
i'll ever have will fall apart
© 2004


wow john that is a beautiful one
Posted 9/2/2004 12:39 PM by LeavesBeginToFall

I Love You by Sarah McLachlan

Currently Playing
Surfacing [ENHANCED CD]
By Sarah McLachlan
see related
- i love you







I Love You

I have a smile
stretched from ear to ear
to see you walking down the road

we meet at the lights
i stare for a while
the world around disappears

just you and me
on this island of hope
a breath between us could be miles

let me surround you
my sea to your shore
let me be the calm you seek

oh, and every time i'm close to you
there's too much i can't say
and you just walk away

and i forgot
to tell you
i love you
and the night's
too long
and cold here
without you

i grieve in my condition
for i cannot find the strength to say i need you so

oh, and every time i'm close to you
there's too much i can't say
and you just walk away

and i forgot
to tell you
i love you
and the night's
too long
and cold here
without you

i love love. haha
and i like y our xanga.
<3hannah
Posted 8/30/2004 1:24 AM by We_Used_To_Dance

"there's a gap in between now and tomorrow and i'm going to fill it with beer" - john kilpatrick (genius)

Above

they say that i'm lost, that i'll never be found
that i've left for the skies with no eyes on the ground
they are right, they speak truth when they speak that of me
fuck them all, fuck them all because i still believe

and i bleed for my purpose, the worthless of worlds
anybody who ever has burned, who was hurled
thru the darkness with nothing to hold, who turned cold
who just needed a reason to keep it all moving, behold

when i speak you will know you were wrong
you will not know the words to the song
you will not sing along
and because of that fact i will smile
while watching the sun as it sets your denial

so fuck what you thought because i never cared
when you said i was lying and said i was scared
be prepared for the future, i'll put it right thru all your eyes
when i'm dead, best believe every word is to rise

and you said i was careless and stupid
for acting against all your reasons, so ruthless
indeed that is just what i did and i loved it
so fuck you and your fucking world, i'm above it
© 2004

...that's right...feel that shit...

Immortality

a permanent knot in my throat, tears just ready to drop
years just ready to waste me, forget me you will not
just come to my grave when it rains, you'll be saved
live your life, kiss your knife, drive the night and be brave

when i move i move quick, i've no thought, just a feeling
believe is tattooed on my wrist, never kneeling
to guilt or to truth or to fear or to law
i'm the realest, the realest that you ever saw

and i claw at the clouds, i will find my way out
i will rest in the heavens and never fall down
what i do now will echo in time
i'll be here still as i leave this whole world behind
© 2004

life is a waste of my time as time is a waste of my life - john kilpatrick

A Fate Of Pain

you want me? i'm here, come and get me, right now
you can save all your knives as the old ones have not been pulled out
come and strike me and see if it hurts
i'll compare it to what's come before and i'll tell you what's worse

sticks and stones, broken bones, broken soul
ask my body if it's really scared of what your hands do hold
i was told once to never be scared
now i'm lost, now a cross between broken/prepared

when you try i will look in your eyes and i'll laugh
because you aren't built for what comes with the wrath
and as you walk away i will tell you, i'll say
"try again when your fate is your pain, your decay"
© 2004

Waiting At The Sea

my soul is chained to yours
the one in the middle
the chain that braces the others
and shows them where to set themselves
and with all the other chains
pulling at your grace
you can't notice the one
that would never hurt you
so sad is the dark
saying goodnight to the sun
dreaming with the angels
i've seen your face in a crowded room full of wings
and i can't move thru the sea
the waves will not move
i just sit there and hope
and i wonder when you will wash ashore
© 2004

2 Dante Quotes For You About Me

there is no greater grief than to remember days of joy when misery is at hand

the more perfect a thing is, the more susceptible to good and bad treatment it is

The Origin Of A Tear

i'm the only one who can hear me now
i notice the dark with a light right in front of my face
it's horrible to have such a mind
the way it thinks
it's so sad
i send a sarcastic "thank you"
in a prayer full of tears to god
a toast to things we throw away
a punch in the face and a knife in the heart
the pain of eyes glued to the ceiling
the words scarred upon a vein on fire
the breath it takes to whisper "hallelujah"
these things make up the salt and water
that falls from your eyes
every time you remember
that everything dies
© 2004

Nice song... one of my favorites actually... And nice poem. And sorry about before...
Posted 8/23/2004 4:48 AM by secrets_unfolded

Goodnight To The Sun

i'm breathing and i'm seeing clearly such things
that i never believed i would see and with wings
built of truth i do fly, i do soar, watch me go
i set fire to past, ashes fall down below

i have grown and i've learned not to care, i do dare
death and time, i will tear them apart, simple rhymes
simple minds know me not, they forgot that they never remembered
they think not and they do not drink, rot, cut, sever

whatever does tear them to pieces
i have but love in my heart, it does bleed
and it sees what is good and what needs to be done
i'm the sky when the moon says goodnight to the sun
© 2004

"i have grown and i've learned not to care, i do dare

death and time, i will tear them apart"

Gorgeous...
Posted 8/19/2004 3:55 AM by secrets_unfolded

"i have grown and i've learned not to care, i do dare death and time, i will tear them apart, simple rhymes simple minds know me not, they forgot"

"i have but love in my heart, it does bleed

and it sees what is good and what needs to be done i'm the sky when the moon says goodnight to the sun"

My fav parts I love it it's beautiful like your mind heart soul body smile eyes i one word like YOU
Posted 8/19/2004 4:28 AM by M1ZZUND3RZT00D

hey thanks for wishin me happy birthday...i dont even know you and you did that for me. thanks. by the way your poetry is pretty good. holla at me. o n e -traci-
Posted 8/19/2004 3:33 PM by Iris_Paradise85

wow...I really like your site and your wonderful words. I hope that you don't mind me subscribing to you...
Posted 8/20/2004 11:01 AM by Nightdust

...Indifference...by Pearl Jam

i will light the match this morning
so i won't be alone
watch as she lies silent
for soon light will be gone

i will stand arms outstretched
pretend i'm free to roam
i will make my way
through, one more day in hell

how much difference does it make?
how much difference does it make?

i will hold the candle
'til it burns up my arm
i'll keep takin' punches
until their will grows tired

i will stare the sun down
until my eyes go blind
i won't change direction
and i won't change my mind

how much difference does it make?
how much difference does it make?
how much difference...

i'll swallow poison
until i grow immune
i will scream my lungs out
'til it fills this room

how much difference
how much difference
how much difference does it make?
how much difference does it make?

The Scientist by Coldplay

Currently Playing
A Rush of Blood to the Head
By Coldplay
see related
- the scientist










...the scientist...

come up to meet you
tell you i'm sorry
you don't know how lovely you are
i had to find you
tell you i need you
tell you i set you apart
tell me your secrets
and ask me your questions
oh, let's go back to the start
running in circles
coming up tails
heads on a silence apart

nobody said it was easy
it's such a shame for us to part
nobody said it was easy
no one ever said it would be this hard

oh, take me back to the start

i was just guessing
at numbers and figures
pulling your puzzles apart
questions of science
science and progress
do not speek as loud as my heart
tell me you love me
come back and haunt me
oh, and i rush to the start
running in circles
chasing our tails
coming back as we are

nobody said it was easy
oh, it's such a shame for us to part
nobody said it was easy
no one ever said it would be so hard

i'm going back to the start

ooOOOoooooooo
ahhOOOooooooo
ooOOOoooooooo
ooOOOoooooooo


MMM..HMMMMMMm..AWWW I MiSS yOu JOHN :)....RacheL n I ARe WAitng on the OutSIde :)
Posted 8/12/2004 1:47 PM by ReDSnOWFLakE

I Remember Us There

i remember your eyes when our lips broke away
i remember the feeling, remember the day
i remember you pressed up so gently on me
i remember the stars that hung over the sea

i remember when you said you couldn't again
i remember the feeling of falling and then
i remember the words that you said, i could tell
i remember the flowers i put in that shell

i remember you walking and leaving me there
i remember you walking away as i stared
i remember you now, i remember the kiss
i remember the honey you left on my lips

i remember i knew that you'd never forget
i remember the words, every last one you said
i remember, you rest in my dreams and my prayers
i remember we kissed at the sea, we were there
© 2004

I think this is one of my favs you're getting better and better
Posted 8/17/2004 3:19 AM by CrimsonPoetry

This IS my favorite. Aside from the one he wrote for me... and Tragedy Curse which I hope to hell is on here. (August 2nd, 2009 @ 5:39 PM)

Love by The Smashing Pumpkins

Currently Playing
Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness
By The Smashing Pumpkins
see related
- love -

...love...

to my mistakes
to my mistakes of cowardice
she shimmy shakes the jimmy jakes of consequence
born of the airs and dues
my airs of madness do declare
that it's ok, it's love
it's what you wanted to see
it's who you wanted to be
for what you needed to need
she'll make it up
love, it's who you know
machine gun blues
her vacant rush is so steel
i'm unaware, lost inside your visions
i got mine too over
i got mine and i got you

cuz i know you, you're love
it's what you wanted to see
it's who you wanted to be
for what you needed to need
she'll make it up
love, it's who you know
can i look up to you as you look down on me?
can i feel in to you as you felt in to me?
i can't help what you see
i can't help but to be
for what i needed to need
she'll make it
love, it's who you know

Fall In Light

fall into light, speak of things no one knew
no one cared about, i put the truth into you
and i never mistook who i was, i just ran
and i turned out to be who i am, who i am

is not wrong, is not lying, not dead and not dying
alive and forever, so sacred and flying
i love and with her i would never deceive
i've a million one hearts, i can't make one believe?

see, forever will come, i'll be there when it does
i do bleed now and time is to drink of my blood
every word, every whisper, what you never thought
all these feelings, what's spoken, what's lost

what is broken, what cost does a soul have to pay to see sun?
i see rays but each day i'm afraid of what comes
i'm afraid what i've done is too turn out so wrong
i'm afraid that in heaven my wings won't belong

i'm afraid for the future, for all and for me
for the hearts that are blind, for the hearts that can see
i've no reasons, i've love, i am void of all care
all i know of is heaven and i will be there
© 2004

hey nooow, i just got back from the beach today...a week in heaven...it makes the other 358 days out of the year worth it...i just got home from work and i got a bottle of wine and my reds and i feel like talking about some stuff...so here you go...happiness comes in small doses and you can't see shooting stars if you don't care how beautiful the ocean sky is...a kiss is not just a kiss...that's bullshit and whoever said it was a fucking idiot...a felt a kiss that changed the world...there is a white dove in the center of the cross...and this is a gift to you...her eyes widened and her soul told me it was sorry...she felt the forever in us...this always happens...the ocean is a different world...it's perfect...it's not like this one we crash into when we fall back down...there's no pain at the ocean...the world is your oyster...pun intended...took you a second didn't it?..after a while of being compared to jesus your brain starts to believe it...i got an "hey, eddie vedder" last night too...that's acceptable too...both are great men...i didn't think that kids in high school now still new about pearl jam...that concert changed my life...july 9th 2003...madison square garden...if four people can make a concrete stadium move like an ocean wave then anything's possible...if i can have someone see in me what i never could...then i believe in the world again...and this happened...and it happened at the ocean...it's gonna be a glorious day...


captain weirdy pants, you know i miss you like bob. you make this rockin world go round and someday soon i'll be needin to drive up to go for a post-of-at-least-you-work-round of jake's cause you know i smile whenever i think of you ;)
Posted 8/8/2004 11:32 PM by LeavesBeginToFall

I'd Love To Smile

little does one know one knows about nothing
roses do fall, we don't see them while running
we trip and and we all wonder why, we get up
and start running again, will we ever let up?

it gets sunny and then it starts raining, we moan
about cold then complain when it's hot, we are so
fucking stupid, i wish we could love and be kind
but i won't see that happen, i'm wasting my time

so i pray and i wish for the day that my dream will exist
when the sun shines on me, cuts thru all of the myst
when the world is a much better place
you will see me, a smile burned onto my face
© 2004



That is awesome. Mind if I subscribe? Stop by my site and give me your POV on some of my junk. Great work though. I like the emotion that you put into it.
Posted 8/1/2004 6:06 PM by Sacred_Rose_of_Stone

beautiful
Posted 8/4/2004 3:03 PM by gods_baby_angel

john haven't talked 2 u in a while, wanna let u no wahts happening.......as if u care.........i found true love......and i don't think it's gonna break my hart this time......maybe ur ex gurlfriend will cum around...maybe she won't ...but i wanna say i'm here for u no matter what, and i just wanna say everything u told me was true....some1 did cum along and blow me away liek u said they would........and i wanna say rite now that i'm sorry i stop beleiving and i'm sorry i doubted u........this has been a long message, so i'll let u get back to me on it alrite?
l8a dawg!
i'm out!

Posted 8/7/2004 10:08 PM by kAnDi_KrIsSy

i'm goin to the beach for a week...woooooooooord up 2 chillin'

Freddy's Apprentice

a short story i wrote for my magazine...the theme for the last issue of the magazine was "relationships and sex" and since me and the rest of the staff are always tryin to push the envelope i came up with this...it was freddy week on tbs or somethin and i had freddy on the brain so he got in there, in the end though we decided that it was too sick and fuckin nuts to place against the other short stories...oopsie...enjoy =)


freddy's apprentice

i love to kill. murder. blades. blood. screams. getting away with it all. it's so beautiful. it's better than sex, and much more addictive. i love to kill.
i've killed so many people that i lost count, but that's only because i ran out of room on my body to scar another tally. it's gotten much more surreal since i lost count. and i've figured that i never had to count in the first place. it must be because i love to do it. and as with every great job, it just feels good. you don't really care about rewards.
man, but lately i've been having these dreams. this guy in a hat, blades on his fingers. i figure this guy loves to kill too. he's fuckin' fitted blades to his fingers. that's fuckin' awesome. if only everybody would take this much pride in their job...
anyway, i love murder so much that every victim gets special treatment. i try to paint pictures. write poetry in blood. hey, i know a poet. he's a pretty sick motherfucker, and oh, how he loves to write. i love to kill. i am a poet too in that regard.
one of the "birds" i "set free" (taken from my journal) was fifteen years old. she was beautiful. blonde. overdeveloped in the body and underdeveloped in the mind. my favorite kind of fuck. illegal to say the least. ha, i never lied to her. i told her how i love to kill. she laughed. she didn't believe me. underage girls don't like to drink beer so i got her bacardi limon (obviously). i drank as many heinekens as she took shots, and mind you i was drunk as hell. after sex she passed out, and i was finally ready to make love.
i sent her blood everywhere. it was so beautiful. her coitus even did some of the work for me. i put the blood on the wall. she put it on the sheets. then, i fell asleep. totally satisfied. totally in love with my bride which, sadly, death did us part.
i consider that my love. my art. my way of contributing to the world. it turns out i wasn't the only one who shared the vision. as i was asleep i suddenly awoke, still dreaming. i saw the man again. i said, "i had a dream about you." the man with blades for fingers said, "you still are, brother." i wasn't scared, i was very intrigued. maybe it was the hat. every killer should have one and anyone who loves to kill knows this. "what's your name?" "freddy." "OH SHIT! father, i'm sorry i didn't recognize you. i know i should of but, i mean i didn't really think it was you. i didn't think i'd ever be lucky enough to be in your grace."
"Don't worry, son. i'm here to show you love."
i knew what he meant.
"mr. kreuger, i believe this is the start of a very beautiful relationship," i said as we descended into the boiler room.
i always had a passion for knives. i have blades for fingers now.


... wow ... very well done ... but ... wow ...
Posted 8/4/2004 3:10 PM by gods_baby_angel

whoa... very nice.
Posted 8/6/2004 11:33 PM by secrets_unfolded

"a moment of realization is worth a thousand prayers"

Saddest of Songs

i break off these thoughts
and become lost in a world
that is void of all pain
i've destroyed what had
poisoned my veins
what of girls? what of me?
let them find
i believe in my fate and i follow it blind
when i die, don't be sad
you should smile and know
that i left this whole world
hoping you would do so
not to cry as i'm gone
but be happy as that's how i'll live
every word that you heard
turns to birds, you just pray
that my soul god forgives
i have turned
i have changed
i am happy
that's different
that's strange
that is interesting
tears turn to sand
look at me
now the saddest of songs
with no blood left to bleed
© 2004


when i read that "look at me" stood out so bold, i actually wanted to really see...
Posted 7/28/2004 3:54 AM by revolting

Natural Born Killers

Currently Watching
Natural Born Killers
By Woody Harrelson, Juliette Lewis
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"i remember everything about our time

every secret you ever shared

i remember every single time you laughed

and your dancing...

i lie in my bed and go over every day

and every second of our happiness

i take it all as it comes and i live that day again

that way when i get to our first kiss

they're not just memories

...i feel that joy again..."

- natural born killers


so u're still hangin on 2 something th@ isn't real.
b careful john please........u'll get hurt if get blinded again....i don't want both of us crying again.......talk 2 me l8er please --me
Posted 7/26/2004 8:43 PM by kAnDi_KrIsSy

Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional

every so often a song comes along and makes someone like me believe again...

...vindicated...

hope dangles on a string
like slow spinning redemption
winding in and winding out
the shine of it has caught my eye

and roped me in
so mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
i am captivated, i am

vindicated
i am selfish, i am wrong
i am right, i swear i'm right
swear i knew it all along

and i am flawed
but i am cleaning up so well
i am seeing in me now the things
you swore you saw yourself

so clear
like the diamond in your ring
cut to mirror your intention
oversized and overwhelmed
the shine of which has caught my eye
and rendered me so isolated
so motivated
i am certain now that i am

vindicated
i am selfish, i am wrong
i am right, i swear i'm right
swear i knew it all along

and i am flawed
but i am cleaning up so well
i am seeing in me now
the things you swore you saw yourself

so turn up the corners of your lips
part them and feel my fingertips
trace the moment
fall forever

defense is paper thin
just one touch and i'd be in
too deep now to ever swim against the current

...so let me slip away...
...so let me slip away...
...so let me slip away...

so let me slip against the current

...so let me slip away...
...so let me slip away...
...so let me slip away...
...so let me slip away...

vindicated
i am selfish, i am wrong
i am right, i swear i'm right
swear i knew it all along

and i am flawed
but i am cleaming up so well
i am seeing in me now
the things you swore you saw yourself

my hope dangles on a string
like slow spinning redemption

...smile...

...so let me slip away....



danielle...i kept my promise...save your pencil....thank you...


is that fr. vindicated? i love that song ssssooooooo much......i haven't heard fr. u in a while....have u 4gotten about me? or have u just been buzy? everybody's always 2 buzy 4 me.......maybe it would b better if i wasn't hear any more........
Posted 7/24/2004 8:01 PM by kAnDi_KrIsSy

Dreamer

there's a dreamer in the mud
doing what a dreamer always does
wishing he was clean
just wishing to the stars above
at least the stars that he can see

so deep his hands have dug
thru dirt to search for who he was
and with his frozen feet
he walks upon his love
toward somewhere he will never be

"take my advice or you'll curse the day
you started rollin' down that lost highway" - jeff buckley

i started walking when i learned to think
and drowned my tears inside a drink
i woke up happy, then the snow would fall
until the spring would thaw

the crows would cry as snow would spill
and they flew farther than i ever will
i dream to fly one day
i dream, i dream to fly away
© 2004



wonderful. it left me breathless and anxious to read on.

<3 cheers

Posted 7/23/2004 4:14 AM by revolting

birthdays have changed...i remember my pool being filled with laughter...i remember the almost-mystery of the toys hiding behind the wrapping paper...i remember the games...tonight i drank my beers and smoked my cigarettes...tomorrow i'll do the same with most of the same people that were in the pool...22...i'm not sad though, not by any means, i'm so happy, so happy...it's my fuckin birthday! haha word! =)...such a glorious day...i realized as i was driving to work today that i was in the middle of my past and my future...and oh, i saw a bright future...tragic too...so sweet...be glad you know me...look for my name...it's gonna be a glorious day...=)


Happy Birthday bro!
Posted 7/23/2004 2:35 AM by PsychedelicSelektah

"In The Event Of My Demise" and "And 2morrow" Both by Tupac Shakur

in the event of my demise

in the event of my demise
when my heart can beat no more
i hope i die for a principle
or a belief that i had lived 4

i will die before my time
because i feel the shadow's depth
so much i wanted 2 accomplish
before i reached my death

i have come 2 grips with the possibility
and wiped the last tear from my eyes
i loved all who were positive
in the event of my demise



and 2morrow

today is filled with anger
fueled with hidden hate
scared of being outcast
afraid of common fate

today is built on tragedies
which no one wants 2 face
nightmares 2 humanities
and morally disgraced

tonight is filled with rage
violence in the air
children bred with ruthlessness
because no one at home cares

tonight i lay my head down
but the pressure never stops
knawing at my sanity
content when i am dropped

but 2morrow i c change
a chance 2 build anew
built on spirit intent of heart
and ideals based on truth

and 2morrow i wake with second wind
and strong because of pride
2 know i fought with all my heart
2 keep my dream alive

- both poems by 2pac

at midnight it'll be my birthday =)...so sweet

wrote a new song, don't have the words yet...they'll be here...smile



happy birthday sweetie
Posted 7/20/2004 6:34 PM by revolting

happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy bithday to yooooooooouuuuuuuuu, happy birthday to you ...

*is done singing now*
Posted 7/20/2004 11:00 PM by gods_baby_angel

I Got Hungry Again... "Be Ready"

let me show you what happens when i get so hungry
these words get real bloody, these thoughts
oh, they don't stop for nothing
disrobing and slowly exploding
you know me, you know how this happens
i can not control me
i never once looked before leaping
i never once held back a secret
so when i was speaking you only heard truth
that's the truth
and i think that's the difference in me and in you
so disgusting, so lucky
i never got broken in half
when the world tried to fuck me
i took it and laughed
i forgot but i'm back
now more deadly
this all starts again
so i hope you are ready
© 2004


... wow ... strong and angry ... i've written a few strong and angry ones lately ... very well done ...
Posted 7/20/2004 11:03 PM by gods_baby_angel

The King of Evermore

once upon a time there was a king and he had everything
you ever wanted, ever seen, and ever lost, and everything
you've ever dreamed, well, he was of the highest angel core
that lived inside the shadows of the hallowed land of evermore

his castle rested in the clouds, so high you wouldn't know
unless you saw the smoke that made his quiet kingdom grow
and on the ground, the people of the land had dreamed to be him
even though they never had the chance to even see him

they wondered, "does he have a name? the king of castle cloud?
why does he not speak with us, the king who's vapors shroud?"
what they did not know is how he watched the people wishing
he could show them all the magic that their lives had all been missing

but he couldn't, see, the reason that his castle was so high
is that you wouldn't understand his mind, and you would wonder why
the others fly, the others which i speak are few and far between
and no one really knows the pain they feel, you've never seen

a heart that couldn't find the peace to live for it's tomorrows
the more the joy, the more that is destroyed inside it's sorrows
still, the people wondered who he was and who he wasn't
"why won't he come down? oh, we do not know why he doesn't"

oh, the wonder grew, until they couldn't wonder anymore
and then a thunder came from underneath the clouds of evermore
a light so bright and blinding was seen shining on the ground
and then the king came walking down the silver lining of the cloud

the people didn't know just what to do, they stood as still
as i imagine they had ever stood before and ever will
oh, and then their eyes were opened wide until they stung
because they knew that he was just about to speak a prophet's tongue

"open up your ears and listen closely to my word
because the truth is something i am thinking you have never heard
i am not of you and you are not of me, but we
are all a part of everything, and everything we'll be

if you can find the magic in your tragedies to rise
then you will, too, be blessed with your own magic in your eyes
but know that you don't know a thing until you wonder why
goodbye, i hope to see you once again inside the sky"

and, still, to this day, in the clouds is the king
in his shrouds with his dreams resting under his wings
and he waits in his kingdom in hopes that you find it
oh, but it seems that you people are blinded
© 2004


"and he waits in his kingdom in hopes that you find it
oh, but it seems that you people are blinded"
Indeed. Some people are blinded. and that's sad. But many no longer are... As i said earlier, BEAUTIFUL!

Posted 7/7/2004 2:09 PM by secrets_unfolded

-breathes- no words come to mind. <3

Posted 7/9/2004 8:15 PM by revolting

WOW...........
i thought i was alone.....
i guess there r more than a few people who feel that way........

(especially kAnDi_KrIsSy)
she's sweet.......i think u r 2.......

Posted 7/12/2004 6:35 PM by hrt_brkr

if you can find the magic in your tragedies to rise
then you will, too, be blessed with your own magic in your eyes
but know that you don't know a thing until you wonder why
goodbye, i hope to see you once again inside the sky"

... ^ ... the best part, i believe ...

... beautiful poem ... in a different class as the rest ...

Posted 7/12/2004 9:09 PM by gods_baby_angel

wow vereee ..... interesting. u realle now how 2 write.

:)

Posted 7/16/2004 5:49 PM by sylichee

Understood (By John for Me)

This girl, she says
She's lost and dead
I want to show her
She is precious

And then she says
She's sick and weak
I want to give her
All the love of which i speak

You keep your heart
Hold your head up so high
Breathe with me
I'll show you of the sky

She lacks the years
She shows no fear
She knows of something
I have learned while shedding tears

But who is she?
How does she know?
I guess some people grow up fast
Before they die so slow

You keep your heart
Hold your head up high
And breathe with me
I'll show you of the sky

You hold your heart up to the sun
We'll both be dead before we're done
You hold your heart up to the sky
I hope you smile, someday you will know why
© 2004

Dear God,

i understand your sunsets now...they balance out the pain of the rest of the day...and of days before...and of days to come...those couple of minutes...i thank you for them...i just want to know why i was meant for so much fucking pain...i know you've seen me crying in my bed asking you "why?"...just repeating it...and repeating it...why?..all i ever needed was love...instead you gave me a so called "gift" that allows me to tell the whole world, in a very prolific manner, about how bad it feels to be crushed...thank you...maybe it's not me...maybe she's just scared...but i can't stop telling her and i can't stop loving her...and i wonder if you ever knew how it felt to speak such beautiful words filled with truth and the response was laughter..."john, you are the cutest thing i've ever seen"...yeah, i am adorable...thank you very fucking much for that god...that does me real good...ask her for a kiss and more laughter...thank you god...thank you for the gift you gave me...i don't know what i'd do without it...i'd probably smile...i'd probably be happy...i guess i'll be happy when i'm dead and i see the roses on my grave...watch her kiss my cold lips from the clouds...thank you god...thank you for my pain...i owe you one...
sincerely,
john


... ouch ... your pain is so palpable ... and i ached when you said "and i wonder if you ever knew how it felt to speak such beautiful words filled with truth and the response was laughter" ... perhaps because i do know what that is like ... don't curse your "gift" as you put it ... one's command over words should only be revered ... and soon, you will get what you give, tenfold ...
Posted 7/6/2004 1:58 PM by gods_baby_angel

DAMN!!

i really thought we were on the same level of pain...

maybe not though....i moved on......i became numb..... just like u said i would......i'm sorry i gave up....but it was killing me...& the hardest thing about this world is just 2 live in it.......so i'm trying 2 make it as easy as possible.......

Posted 7/6/2004 3:37 PM by kAnDi_KrIsSy

I am very sorry you're in such pain, but why blame this on God? Since when does God play Cupid to fulfill our desires and human wishes? He is above all that and can see how things will fall in place when we can't. What you should ask yourself is why does this girl mean so much to you if she treats you that way? She doesn't deserve your love. Anyone who throws something like that away is (for lack of a better adjective) not very nice. I am truly sorry you're hurting, but remember: once you hit the bottom, the only way to go is up. ---Praying 4 ya!
Posted 7/8/2004 9:43 PM by AcrosstheSky

you were from a perfect world...a world that threw me away today...today...to run away...a pill to make you numb...a pill to make you dumb...a pill to make you anybody else...fuckin beautiful


this gives me mixed emotions.
Posted 7/4/2004 7:39 AM by revolting

... i liked this ... for personal reasons ... it reminds me of me ...
Posted 7/5/2004 3:12 AM by gods_baby_angel

i got a show to do in four days...25 poems and 5 songs...3 of the songs are my own...the other two, well they could change at any time but right now they stand at "lost highway" and "in the garage"...but tonight i think that's gonna change...me and bob had a strange night, i fuckin love that kid, we had a strange night...started out how it always does, at lombardis, takin shots drinkin beers...then everyone went to gina's house...then we got a phone call from jenna sayin they're at the meadowlands fair so word we do that up...no beers...fuck...so we get some gyros and head to the bar by where we live and NO ONE is in there...its the bartender and two bikers...and the juke box...i play songs bob aint heard in years...we're doin shots left and right...november rain caused a big round...bob calls tom and al who are in cali and tom tells bob to tell me they were at the santa monica pier...word...so i dropped bob off and if you knew bob you'd know he was never happier about an evening that fell apart...and tomorrow...barbeques and beers kids...barbeques and beers...oh, the point of this story is that bob asked me if they had "wild horses" by the rolling stones on the jukebox and i said "shit i didnt know they wrote that!" and i'm thinkin bout sacrificing "in the garage" for that song...i hope i can learn it real quick...cuz i got a show to do in four days

Lucky by Radiohead

Currently Playing
OK Computer
By Radiohead
see related
- lucky



...lucky...

i'm on a roll
i'm on a roll this time
i feel my luck could change

kill me, sarah
kill me again with love
it's gonna be a glorious day

pull me out of the aircrash
pull me out of the lake
cuz i'm your superhero
we are standing on the edge

the head of state has
called for me by name
but i don't have time for him

it's gonna be a glorious day
i feel my luck could change

pull me out of the aircrash
pull me out of the lake
cuz i'm your superhero
we are standing on the edge

we are standing on the edge



Now that's a great song! laaater oh and Happy Friday.

Posted 7/2/2004 12:45 PM by secrets_unfolded

Idea-thief!!!

Posted 7/2/2004 5:44 PM by secrets_unfolded

<3
Posted 7/2/2004 7:41 PM by revolting

These Things Are So Sweet

I AM: me
I WANT: everything
I HAVE: my guitar next to me
I WISH: i wish i didn't have to
I HATE: idiots
I MISS: the love
I FEAR: nothing
I HEAR: everything
I SEARCH: more than you do

I WONDER: more than you do
I REGRET: nothing
I LOVE: too much

I ACHE: and you read
I AM NOT: wrong

I DANCE: the happy dance
I SING: all the time
I CRY: i used to
I WRITE: to live
I LOSE: every day

I CONFUSE: everyone
I NEED: a house on the beach

I SHOULD: run away

I CANT: live in this world


word. laaaaaaaater
Posted 7/1/2004 5:40 AM by secrets_unfolded

i think i might borrow this later. :)
Posted 7/1/2004 5:58 AM by revolting

hey John, I like that, very much...very well done
Posted 7/1/2004 7:16 PM by anonymous

To All Who Read This Shit...

you never met anybody like me...never...you can think that i don't know what i'm talking about...that i'm just trying to say i'm different...watch my middle finger rise to say hello and goodbye to you as you think that...the pain in me taught me how to smile...the waves in me taught me how to love...the smile on your face reminds me that i put it there...and your eyes tell me all i need to know...that this kid is somethin' else...a star that fell...blinding...this sounds conceited...good...i never was conceited and it feels good to say something good about myself...the truth...i hope you like the poems i put on this page...you should copy and paste while you can...you'll have to pay money later after i'm dead...have a beautiful day...and fucking smile...



beautiful
Posted 6/30/2004 4:26 AM by secrets_unfolded

AmEN!!!.... :)..MuWAhZZzzZZzZ
Posted 6/30/2004 1:09 PM by ReDSnOWFLakE

"just remember that you never had "believe" on your wrist

to remind you suicide means you died and you're missed"

great line right there...


That is a great line. I like your title thing. Everclear rules.

~Jay

Posted 6/28/2004 2:40 PM by SixStringDarkness

haha i fell in love with that
Posted 6/29/2004 8:56 PM by AcrosstheSky

That's a nice song you have playing here ;)
Posted 6/30/2004 4:15 AM by secrets_unfolded

Scars Will Heal

i wrote this over a year ago but i thought of it because someone really needs to read it...



scars will heal and scars will fade

but what of promises i made?

i try to keep them all but some

depend on dreams that never come

and ‘though i run i never see

the future ‘fore it falls on me

and sets me back

the thoughts about my past

the things that never last

but that’s all right, you’ll see

the day will come when

i will be what i believed

i bleed for sun, i know

that i will leave this world below

and i will soar so high, you’ll say

that every dream comes true one day

so what of scars that we conceal?

scars will fade and scars will heal
© 2004

...smile...



someone. hrm? :) thx.
Posted 6/25/2004 6:35 PM by revolting

Angel was right before... your last lines are incredible...
Posted 6/26/2004 5:21 AM by secrets_unfolded

very beautiful ... though i tend to disagree ... some scars never fade or heal ... not completely ... that's where penance comes in ...
Posted 6/26/2004 11:44 PM by gods_baby_angel

The Phoenix and The Ocean

Currently Playing
Fallen
By Evanescence
see related
- hello


if i should drown i'll drown with wings
that flew for better things
i'd crash into the ocean
holding on to all that i believed

all i held that slipped away
and all that i had dreamed
all that crashed into the ocean
all that's good inside of me

smile, i will smile as the wings
of phoenix burn away
the ashes will then breathe
and i'll be free to fly another day

there's no more tears, there's no more hurt
there's no such deeper wound, no cure
and all that's left are ashes, words
oh, watch me fall and find the ocean
watch me as i burn
© 2004



the last stanza cut through me ... may i burn, too?

Posted 6/24/2004 7:50 PM by gods_baby_angel

Hello by Evanescence

Currently Playing
Fallen
By Evanescence
see related
- hello -



...hello...

playground school bell rings again

rain clouds come to play again

has no one told you she's not breathing?

hello

i'm your mind giving you someone to talk to

hello

if i smile and don't believe

soon i know i'll wake from this dream

don't try to fix me i'm not broken

hello

i'm the lie living for you so you can hide

don't cry

suddenly i know i'm not sleeping

hello

i'm still here

all that's left of yesterday

...that's fuckin beautiful...




<3
Posted 6/23/2004 2:57 AM by revolting


Posted 6/23/2004 1:09 PM by secrets_unfolded

... this is, i think, their best song ... the anthem to my life ...
Posted 6/24/2004 7:46 PM by gods_baby_angel

i walk with my guitar against the the rain...feel it try to stop me...feel the truth of my dreams...each step is a trumph over this world...a battle against the ways of today...and i smell that ocean and i see that wave in my head and you can't see the tears because they're hidden amongst the raindrops...but you can still see me smile...i will never stop smiling...never stop laughing...never stop...eddie vedder said he didn't start a band for the fame...he did it so one day he could to move to the ocean so he, "could just get away from all you people"...such a ridiculous world...and eddie has the right idea...and i was born walking with that idea in my head and my guitar in my hand...crying in the rain...have you ever been in the ocean while it was raining?..it's a beautiful thing...let it keep raining because when i get to the ocean it's going to make it that much better...this world will never stop me...never



"feel it try to stop me"

yet again you move me completely.

Posted 6/22/2004 5:19 AM by revolting

you can't see the tears because they're hidden amongst the raindrops

... how many times have i done this? ... stood in the rain so that my tears were invisible?
Posted 6/22/2004 3:26 PM by gods_baby_angel

hey there........i guess i kinda did think u were ignoring me.... every1 else does... so i didn't think u'd b any different....u no, i feel really bad..... b/c i told u about the guy @ skool who likes me rite? well, he finally told me...... even thoe i already knew i didn't no wh@ 2 say so th@ i didn't hurt him.... he's like a brother 2 me...and i have a crush on 3 other guys....... and i think i'm in luv w/ some1...........................

i hope i can talk 2 u l8er

--ME

Posted 6/22/2004 4:41 PM by kAnDi_KrIsSy

PS

what do u do?.........work i mean? holla l8er!

Posted 6/22/2004 4:43 PM by kAnDi_KrIsSy

The Phoenix Dragon Method

wrote the first part 3 years ago, wrote the second part 4 years ago...eat it...if you heard me read this for you you would sign up to be an apostle...i'm never conceited but for once i will be, you will never read something like this again in your fucking life...so enjoy...



(phoenix)

let us do this, the truest, my dream is insane
who am i? i am eyes in the back of your brain
i am angels and demons in battle, the winner
determines my reasons, i know i'm a sinner

but still i'm a saint for i have no remorse
for the evil that stands in my course and of course
the reward is enormous for all of the crosses
that i have to carry while cutting my losses

but words i will never run out of, so listen
for i live in worlds that no sorrow exists in
i'm lifted, the clouds are inside me, i'll fly
'til i don't have to fly anymore or i die

He put swords in my eyes, my surprise is disguised
in a secret, i keep all my dreams in the skies
see, no mind has a shine like you'll find in behind
of the caverns of voices rejoicing in mine

i'm embracing the crowds as i race for the places
i've seen from the clouds, and in case i don't make it
i give you this, take it, it's all that i've got
every word will awaken, mistaken or not

you will feel it, the spirits are venomous
silence is all that you need, i am freed by the exodus
all that i know is for real is for, really, a shield
that conceals what's revealed, when you're healed

you will know, i will tell you my criminal vision
illegal religion with outlawed contrition
the vapors are portions of peace, every prayer
is ignited, i light it, it moves thru the air

do you feel me? i live with a vision that bleeds
in a scripture configured to all of my needs
i can see thru the future and that's where i'm living
forgive me for sinning, it's just the beginning
© 2001

(dragon)

i strike with my light as i fight with tenacity
blast as i pass thee, my mental capacity
runs thru the wicked, i shift when i'm lifted
i'm christened and listening, drifting, i'm gifted

forget what you see for i let you see ghosts
that explode in my heart, i am smarter than most
when you notice me noticing, know this, i see
all your secrets, the deepest, stay focused, you'll see

no one flees from behind of my mind, you won't find me
the diamond i'm hiding inside me is blinding
i know how to use it, confusion ensues
you must choose, i am loose, i have nothing to lose

believe me, my heart is misleading, i'm bleeding
but you are not feeling my words, you're just reading
i have every reason to vacantly stare
for i know what i lost i will find and repair

do you trust me? you must be mistaken, i'll enter
the soil of earth and explode in the center
i'll still be left standing, demanding the truth
as i exorcise lies from the eyes of my youth

my weapons are etched in these words, i'll release this
in pieces, no peace, i use telekinesis
to render you helpless, so selfish, pathetic
you think i'm dependant on my anesthetic

you blink and i'll end this so fast, you will spin
in a circle believing that i won't begin
to unleash all the magic i've forged in my head
you should open your eyes, you are already dead

and i'm risen, my tears turn to sand, i have made it
past hell and the fire, believe that i played it
so close to my chest, like a wire of sound
that can never be found, i have wound it around

every heart that i've focused my eyes on, i've broken
the spell with my own dream of words never spoken
my message is clear, i will light up the sun
and i won't let you stop me before i am done

i've the method of prophets, in time resurrected
thru words that i murder, you never expected
that i would find wings in my heart but i did
and i'm just lifting off, i am still just a kid
© 2000



Great, as usual. My favorite line in this one would have to be "as i exorcise lies from the eyes of my youth" It brings back memories from my past...
Posted 6/21/2004 3:45 AM by secrets_unfolded

but words i will never run out of, so listen

for i live in worlds that no sorrow exists in

i'm lifted, the clouds are inside me, i'll fly

'til i don't have to fly anymore or i die

... i think i have read this three or four times ... it's amazing ... absolutely amazing ... the lines i quoted are my favorite ... i live to fly ... i wish i could fly on my own ... but ... my wings are broken ...
Posted 6/22/2004 3:22 PM by gods_baby_angel

That was really great. You did an awesome job.

Posted 6/22/2004 3:33 PM by Angelsdevil637

Free

i wrote this at the hotel bar at the sheraton in samford connecticut like 2 weeks ago, i was there cuz my brother and dad are golf freaks and there was a golf tournament nearby...well what i did the night before we went to the course at 8 in the morning was get completely trashed at a club in town...but this i wrote during my second beer at the hotel bar...anyway i've found that when i'm away from home i write happy cheesy stuff and you know what i fuckin love it...check it out...



in case you should wander
do not wonder why
just believe and go forth
under wonderful skies

know with wings you can breathe
and put peace in your veins
you can leave all your troubles
and sleep with the rain

there is magic in eyes
when they look towards the stars
there is magic in you
when you look in your heart

what does happen when things fall apart?
never worry
just rise up again but, my friend
no need hurry

there's time and a million one places to see
so go forth, go and wander, go on, you are free
© 2004

...fuckin sweet...



i really love this ... .. ... the last line, especially ... i've said it before, will probably say it again: the lines you end on blow me away
Posted 6/18/2004 10:55 PM by gods_baby_angel

While Alive

fuck all you know about how life should be
because i am not you and, oh, you are not me
and you never believed what i think so i say
fuck the world because this world has made me this way

i am just in my wisdom and trials and thoughts
i go crazy because i am acting against what is lost
there are systems that say i'm mislead
there are systems that don't know what sits in my head

and so fuck them and fuck you all too if you think that
my brain isn't right and that i am insane, i do bleed facts
in fact i do think you're all crazy
so what do you say of me now that i've said that?

detain me, i laugh at your chains and your ways
and your flames and the ignorant things that you say
i am saved, fuck this world, fuck it all, fuck me too
the earth is to crash thru the sun, me and you

we're all dying someday, we are dying right now
when you woke up this morning your time had gone down
so do not waste your time wasting time for no reason
you go out and live, find out what you believe in
© 2004



... you made me smile today ... for that, the words "thank you" are not enough ... i needed a good smile today ...

i love this ... you captured everything i felt today, all the events and situations and fights i've had ... thank you ...

Posted 6/17/2004 5:01 PM by gods_baby_angel


Here are my answers to your quiz:

1. First name: Robert
2. Middle name: Bite Me
3. Last name: Letmethink
4. Nickname(s): holy dark one, master, sir...don't laugh haha
5. Screen names: Daark, Tamashiwarri
6. Gender: Man
7. Age: Old enough to use a cane
8. Type of Music: Various, metal rap, classical, rock, etc etc..I like it all
9. Birthdate: December 24, 19**
10. Birthplace: In a Hospital I hope
11. Zodiac sign: Capricorn
12. Current location: In my office, in Nova Scotia
13. Live with: Myself and my wicked ways
14. Name of current school: no School, I work for a living
18. Height: 5'8" I'm shrinking...grimace
19. Hair color: sometimes it salt and pepper, now it's bald ha ha
20. Highlights/dyed: ah no
21. Hair length: re growing, I buzz cut it off every week or so
22. Eye color: Green Ice or Horny Gray
23. Contacts/glasses: Contact lenses

24. Freckles: ah huh
25. Birthmark(s): Yeah
26. Scar(s): Everywhere, mostly from knives...
27. Type(s) of clothes you wear: Black, blue jeans, shirts..I wear clothes period, but not at night while home...
28. Cologne/Perfume you wear: Ah...axel, Daviddorff (I dont' think I spelled that right)
29. Deodorant you use: Old Spice High Endurance
Family Life
30. Mom's name: was
31. Dad's name: was
33. Closest family member: brother Danny

34. Family member you could live without: care not to say, next question
35. Last family member you've seen: my brother Danny
36. Oldest: anyone who is not dead

37. Youngest: my brother...
38. Family member who lives the farthest away: Sister in Ontario
39. Fondest memory: I don't h ave fond memories
40. Memory you miss the most: The Rocks..
41. Family member you wish the mafia would kill: Can't tell you that, because I can do it myself (Grin) but bad karma to do own family member
42. Memory you wish you had: Hmmm..
43. What you did yesterday: Worked my arse off like usual, went out with bro, talked to Jennifer my baby
44. What you did so far today: Woke up late, drank coffee and ate some awful hotdogs on barbeque, downloading movies, no not porn!................not yet haha
45. Last person you talked to on the phone: Danny my bro..yeah yeah, we have construction to get done..
46. Last person you talked to online: Jennifer and my Son
47. Last movie you've seen: ah that one where ...shit, I forget...the next day? the day after? something like that...hell, I don't recall...scratching head

48. Last song you heard on the radio: Something from Nickleback was blaring in the office background..

49. Last CD you played: a Mix I made on this piece of junk of a computer..
50. Last thing you said out loud: "Fuck you, you fucking moron!"My brother is a fucking idiot!"...said that just last night actually
51. Last time you showered: about an hour ago...
52. Last book you read: I'm reading erotic writing that jenn sent me..*EG*
54. Last time you sang: I sing all the time..I like being an idiot
55. Last time you danced: ... Does moving your legs count if a song is on?

56. Last thing you ate/drank: Too much beer and I had some sushi with it
Believe it or Not
57. Aliens: yes
58. Angels: I have an angel, her name is Jennifer
59. Demons: I am the Master Demon
60. Heaven & Hell: Heaven refuses to listen to me, Hell, they are making my personal cloak as I type this
61. God:Amen

62. Your friends: I don't do friends..
Friendships
64. Best friend: Andree
65. Last friend you talked to: I don't have any

66. Funniest: Kyfrog when she is not being girlie ha ha
67. Silliest: James, the dick
68. Loudest: James
70. Stupidest: James
71. Sweetest: Jennifer and Donice
72. Weirdest: Me, you moron

73. Best at keeping secrets: what secrets? tell on me and you die...
74. Most hyper: Jennifer..ducking slap
76. Friend you miss most: Can't say
77. Friend you've known the longest: Andree
78. Friend you haven't known long: Online.....Donice I guess
Word Association
79. Bill Clinton: Cigar shover
80. Lollipops: Tootsie roll pops or those astro pops, yeah I like
81. Whipped Cream: I love that stuff..really, I do, especially while licking it off a woman...Ruffff

82. Dreams:Wet
83. Love: J, my baby
84. South Park: Huh? cartoon<>

85. Guys: Morons, most of them of course
86. Girls:Curvy, sexy, yummy, smell great, etc etc
87. Death: Nearing

88. Bubble gum: yeah, I do bubble on occassion

89. Water:it's in my fish tank
90. Ice Cream: Yeah, love chocolate sundaes with whip cream and cherries ha ha

91. Oil: My skin while working hard haha
92. Phone: What are you asking exactly about the phone?

93. Food: I eat to live
94. Kiss:Devouring, I use my whole body to kiss, not just my lips

95. Pretzels: Good with beer
96. Britney Spears: She looks good...
97. School: Did that, done that

98. Floppy:Floppy? huh..what the fuck does floppy have to do with anything?

99. Shoes: Missils to your bloody head, if you don't stop asking such retarded questions
Have you ever (FYI answer yes or no)
100. Been on a plane: yes
101. Cried in public: Hell no, well maybe because I had something in my eye
102. Climbed a tree: yes
103. Gotten in a physical fight: hahaha, a few to many
104. Drank alcohol: oh yes
105. Fell asleep in a movie theatre: Just about, I started to snore, the person next to me poked me in ribs, I awoke with a frown...
106. Driven a car: yes, and wrecked a few too
107. Been arrested: Umm...rolls eyes
108. Broken curfew: What the hell is a curfew?

109. Been pulled over when driving: Of course, I threatened him

110. Farted in public: dah, yeah
111. Met a celebrity: shaking head, I am a celebrity, want my autograph?
112. Skipped school: Jigged all the time, but I was bright in school, so easily passed lol

113. Went to a pro sports game: yes
114. Met the president: No, I'm a canuck, we don't do president's
115. Been scared to get shot: We all fear of getting shot, especially when you are dodging a few of the silver bullets..
116. Smoke a cigarette: Too many, hacccccck, cough
117. Gotten a cavity:Yeah, I got silver
118. Done any drugs: Yup
119. Shopped at Abercrombie & Fitch:Where the hell are those?

120. Gone skinny-dipping: Of course, doesn't everyone?
Favorites
121. Food: Shellfish

122. Drink: Coffee, Chocolate milkshakes from McDonalds
123. TV show: I like survivor, amazing race, big brother and documentaries
124. Movie: Heaven and Earth

125. CD: Boccelli, A.
126. Song: I like instrumental

127. Color: Black/Red
128. Day of the week: Saturday
129. Month: December
130. Number: 13
132. Favorite Car: Black stretch limo

133. Cookie: Chocolate Oatmeal Chip

134. Toothpaste: Anything that says whitening power hahaha...
135. Ice Cream: I like it all

137. Candy bar: Skor
138. TV channel: History channel
139. Radio station: Blah, I don't know the station 104. something

140. Artist/band: Bocelli, A.
141. Shampoo/conditioner: Anything with a conditioner in it, and not perfumeee smelling
143. Website: Http://wwww.daarkslair.comehere
144. Sports to play: Softball
145. Sports to watch: Olympic Games every 4 years

146. Place: In bed with J.
147. Vacation spot: Porta Plata
148. Kind of candle: Anything EXCEPT vanilla, it gives me a bitching headache

149. Color eyes: Green/Gray/Blue

Posted 6/18/2004 1:34 PM by anonymous

I Looooooooooooove These Things!...And This One Is Fuckin Looooong And Im Nice And Drunk, Enjoy...

1. First name: john
2. Middle name: matthew
3. Last name: kilpatrick
4. Nickname(s): johnny, johnny k
5. Screen names: twenty1july
6. Gender: male
7. Age: 21
8. Type of Music: whatever makes me feel somethin
9. Birthdate: july 21st, 1982
10. Birthplace: paterson, nj
11. Zodiac sign: cancer
12. Current location: little falls, nj
13. Live with: family
14. Name of current school: never never land university
18. Height: 5'9"
19. Hair color: dark dark brown
20. Highlights/dyed: well i get lighter hairs in some spots in the summer
21. Hair length: by my chin
22. Eye color: hazel
23. Contacts/glasses: no
24. Freckles: no
25. Birthmark(s): yeah, little ones
26. Scar(s): indeed
.27. Type(s) of clothes you wear: my clothes
28. Cologne/Perfume you wear: dont wear it
29. Deodorant you use: old spice

Family Life
30. Mom's name: mary anne
31. Dad's name: walter
33. Closest family member: ...
34. Family member you could live without: ...
35. Last family member you've seen: dad
36. Oldest: well my father, but my brother is older than me
37. Youngest: me
38. Family member who lives the farthest away: ...
39. Fondest memory: the ocean
40. Memory you miss the most: the ocean
41. Family member you wish the mafia would kill: fuck you
42. Memory you wish you had: peace
43. What you did yesterday: work, write, drink, dream
44. What you did so far today: work, write, drink
45. Last person you talked to on the phone: joana's sister at the cafe, i was trying to schedule another show
46. Last person you talked to online: jenn-marie
47. Last movie you've seen: gangs of new york
48. Last song you heard on the radio: i dont listen
49. Last CD you played: avril lavigne: under my skin
50. Last thing you said out loud: "oh" but you dunno the context
51. Last time you showered: 5:47 june 15th 2004
52. Last book you read: the old man and the sea
54. Last time you sang: well, last time i sang in front of people was last wednesday
55. Last time you danced: i dance all the time
56. Last thing you ate/drank:heineken, sandwich #3 made by fernando

Believe it or Not
57. Aliens: indeed
58. Angels: i am one
59. Demons: i am one
60. Heaven & Hell: torn between them both
61. God: yes
62. Your friends: always and forever

Friendships
64. Best friend: my guitar
65. Last friend you talked to: jared
66. Funniest: al
67. Silliest: al
68. Loudest: lee
70. Stupidest: al
71. Sweetest: lindsey
72. Weirdest: shit out of all my friends that would be me
73. Best at keeping secrets: no secrets
74. Most hyper: lee
76. Friend you miss most: everyone
77. Friend you've known the longest: tom
78. Friend you haven't known long: rob

Word Association
79. Bill Clinton: the man
80. Lollipops: watermelon
81. Whipped Cream: fuck whipped cream
82. Dreams: i need water
83. Love: tina
84. South Park: fuckin sweet
85. Guys: dicks
86. Girls: beautiful
87. Death: please
88. Bubble gum: waste of money
89. Water: oooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhh
90. Ice Cream: yes
91. Oil: bush
92. Phone: call
93. Food: hungry
94. Kiss: tina
95. Pretzels: toothache
96. Britney Spears: shag/then/ask/for/directions/to/get/back/home
97. School: world
98. Floppy: bunny ears
99. Shoes: feet

Have you ever (FYI answer yes or no)
100. Been on a plane: yep
101. Cried in public: nope
102. Climbed a tree: =)
103. Gotten in a physical fight: never
104. Drank alcohol: oooooooooh boy
105. Fell asleep in a movie theatre: nope
106. Driven a car: are you serious?
107. Been arrested: yeah ha couple times over some stupid bullshit
108. Broken curfew: always
109. Been pulled over when driving: hahaha
110. Farted in public: no never actually, id be so embarassed
111. Met a celebrity: les paul
112. Skipped school: ha
113. Went to a pro sports game: last one was yankees vs red sox at yankees stadium
114. Met the president: better that i dont
115. Been scared to get shot: nope
116. Smoke a cigarette: always
117. Gotten a cavity: yep
118. Done any drugs: hey now
119. Shopped at Abercrombie & Fitch: no
120. Gone skinny-dipping: yes yes yes

Favorites
121. Food: cheesteak on the boardwalk
122. Drink: heieneken, an iced tea i make at work with strawberry and watermelon syrup and passion tazo tea
123. TV show: i dont really know
124. Movie: braveheart
125. CD: smashing pumpkins - siamese dream
126. Song: soma - smashing pumpkins
127. Color: red
128. Day of the week: friday
129. Month: july
130. Number: 3
132. Favorite Car: mustang
133. Cookie: sugar cookies from my old hs cafeteria
134. Toothpaste: who cares
135. Ice Cream: bubble gum ice cream from the beach at this place
137. Candy bar: payday
138. TV channel: 50 - comedy central
139. Radio station: 92.3 - kroq
140. Artist/band: smashing pumpkins, jeff buckley
141. Shampoo/conditioner: pantene pro-v 2 in 1
143. Website: ...
144. Sports to play: wiffle ball, basketball
145. Sports to watch: basketball, baseball
146. Place: the ocean
147. Vacation spot: seapointe, nj
148. Kind of candle: my mom has a vanilla one that i love
149. Color eyes: make me think of the ocean


... drinking again ... (*laughing*) ... .. ... ok, I’ll play:

1. First name: jennifer

2.
Middle name: marie

3. Last name: mouton

4. Nickname(s): jenners, angel, baby

5. Screen names: buena gata, gba_jm, god's baby angel

6. Gender: female

7. Age: 22

8. Type of Music: everything ... including the sound of my daughter's laughter and the waves of the ocean

9. Birthdate: 19 march 1982

10. Birthplace: springfield, ohio

11. Zodiac sign: pisces

12. Current location: urbana, ohio

13. Live with: family (and my dreams)

14. Name of current school: urbana university

18. Height: 5'3"

19. Hair color: auburn

20. Highlights/dyed: blonde highlights, making my hair more of a light brown

21. Hair length: soon to be long again, currently down to the nape of my neck

22. Eye color: depends on my mood ... happy/aroused/angry/or if it's a beautiful day outside - blue; sad/indifferent/or cloudy/rainy outside - grey

23. Contacts/glasses: I’m supposed to wear my glasses, but I never do

24. Freckles: a few ...

25. Birthmark(s): no

26. Scar(s): a few - wait, physical or emotional?

27. Type(s) of clothes you wear: anything that makes me feel good

28. Cologne/Perfume you wear: Obsession, by Calvin Klein ... and Opium

29. Deodorant you use: I’m a woman ... Secret



Family Life

30.
Mom's name: jeanette

31. Dad's name: scott

33. Closest family member: um ... my cousin, Wally, i’d say

34. Family member you could live without: most of them

35. Last family member you've seen: my daughter and nieces

36. Oldest: my mom ... in the immediate family ... my uncle jeff in the slightly extended family

37. Youngest: well, my daughter ...

38. Family member who lives the farthest away: not applicable

39. Fondest memory: ...

40. Memory you miss the most: being happy

41. Family member you wish the mafia would kill: um ... yeah ... no comment

42. Memory you wish you had: my parents being happy they had me

43. What you did yesterday: took care of my daughter and nieces, went to class, did dishes and laundry, took the girls to lunch in town, went swimming with the girls ... wrote ...

44. What you did so far today: pretty much the same as yesterday with the exception of class, lunch, and swimming

45. Last person you talked to on the phone: ... I don’t talk on the phone ... my sister, I think ...

46. Last person you talked to online: juilian

47. Last movie you've seen: In the theater? ... harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban - opening night

48. Last song you heard on the radio: down with the sickness, disturbed

49. Last CD you played: toxicity, system of a down

50. Last thing you said out loud: “next time you hit someone, i’m going to hit you” - hey, it worked ...

51. Last time you showered: 10:00-10:30am, June 16th, 2004

52. Last book you read: childhood’s end, arthur c. clarke (I read it yesterday, will read something new today)

54. Last time you sang: last night, to my daughter, to get her to sleep ... she’s the only one I can sing in front of

55. Last time you danced: ... I can’t remember ... there’s no one to dance with

56. Last thing you ate/drank: a handful of fritos at eleven o’clock last night/glass of water this morning


Believe it or Not

57. Aliens: yes

58. Angels: I am one

59. Demons: refer to answer above

60. Heaven & Hell: yes, but neither will have me

61. God: ask me tomorrow

62. Your friends: more than anything



Friendships

64. Best friend: I don’t have one

65. Last friend you talked to: juilian

66. Funniest: james

67. Silliest: becky

68. Loudest: dan

70. Stupidest: dan

71. Sweetest: donice

72. Weirdest: um ... yeah, me

73. Best at keeping secrets: what secrets? ... oh, those ... um, yeah, all of my friends ...

74. Most hyper: yeah, that’s me

76. Friend you miss most: ann

77. Friend you've known the longest: ann

78. Friend you haven't known long: donice


Word Association

79. Bill Clinton: asshole

80. Lollipops: oral fixation

81. Whipped Cream: mmm (can’t share that thought)

82. Dreams: torture

83. Love: robert

84. South Park: cartman

85. Guys: fear

86. Girls: sexy

87. Death: release

88. Bubble gum: oral fixation

89. Water: me

90. Ice Cream: oral fixation

91. Oil: dirty

92. Phone: ... um ... (can’t share that thought, either)

93. Food: enemy

94. Kiss: lonely

95. Pretzels: salt

96. Britney Spears: slut

97. School: learning

98. Floppy: heehee (this thought, either)

99. Shoes: floor



Have you ever (FYI answer yes or no)

100. Been on a plane: yes

101. Cried in public: yes

102. Climbed a tree: yes

103. Gotten in a physical fight: no

104. Drank alcohol: oh yes

105. Fell asleep in a movie theatre: no

106. Driven a car: of course

107. Been arrested: no

108. Broken curfew: what curfew? ... oh, THAT curfew

109. Been pulled over when driving: yes - but i’m good with cops

110. Farted in public: no

111. Met a celebrity: no

112. Skipped school: heehee - i’m an angel remember

113. Went to a pro sports game: yes

114. Met the president: no

115. Been scared to get shot: yes

116. Smoke a cigarette: mmmm

117. Gotten a cavity: once

118. Done any drugs: shhhh!

119. Shopped at Abercrombie & Fitch: no way in hell

120. Gone skinny-dipping: ... refer to number 112.


Favorites

121. Food: philly cheesesteak (FROM philly ... no imitations, please)

122. Drink: chocolate milk

123. TV show: I don’t watch

124. Movie: dead poet’s society

125. CD: “hello,” poe

126. Song: “always a woman,” billy joel, or “who wants to live forever,” queen

127. Color: blue or black

128. Day of the week: Saturday

129. Month: April

130. Number: 13

132. Favorite Car: hmm ... bmw ... the little tiny convertible one ...

133. Cookie: anything with white chocolate ... the sin of the gods ...

134. Toothpaste: crest

135. Ice Cream: mint chocolate chip - made with andes mints

137. Candy bar: ugh

138. TV channel: ugh

139. Radio station: 99.7, the blitz

140. Artist/band: jewel/queen

141. Shampoo/conditioner: pantene pro-v, daily moisture renewal

143. Website: http://jennmarie.com - heehee

144. Sports to play: um ... figure skating (it IS a sport!)

145. Sports to watch: basketball, figure skating

146. Place: the ocean

147. Vacation spot: the new river in west virginia

148. Kind of candle: anything vanilla

149. Color eyes: blue or green
Posted 6/16/2004 12:06 PM by gods_baby_angel