Thus I Was

alright, know this, approach all this rage and just listen
you pray to be close in proximity, this is admission
to all that is true, i have heard i am jesus
you hear that for so long, you start to believe it

i speak every word as if i am to die
after watching the energy move thru the sky
and i never once lied, who could tell such a story?
who speaks of such peace and has dreams oh, so gory?

it's me, how i hate how i changed
i can change back again
until then, oh, the pain
with a sword in my sleep and the demons that scare
i am ready, oh, born to be damned, so prepared

for what comes, for what runs thru the blood, i can smile
i do and i laugh all the time but oh, while
i'm falling asleep all the peace leaves from me
and i pray that i don't wake from sleep, don't you see?

if you saw in my head you would wish you were dead
you would pity but i do not want that, i want love instead
and i want of a heart that can see thru the fog
i just want that one heart that does feel what is gone

but i'll never be lucky, not lucky like those
who feel nothing but still girls accept every rose
as i go just remember the realest that was
that one lightning that struck
lived in truth and was fucked
© 2004


... i'm sorry i've been absent from your poetry, hon ... .. ... you have such talent, though, and such love inside to give ... and you're still so young (i know that doesn't help) ... and this life has so much laying before you to grasp and live ... please trust that somewhere, an amazing woman is waiting for you to notice her ... *hugs*

~ the angel
Posted 10/7/2004 9:30 AM by gods_baby_angel

JOHn..why R u SOoo fucKinG GOoD...huh?!?!?!miSSs u loTz<3

Megz

Posted 10/13/2004 12:54 PM by ReDSnOWFLakE

shit. and that's all i gots to say bout this one. you know i'm your #1 fan. well, if you didn't know, now you do. rach
Posted 11/6/2004 8:03 PM by LeavesBeginToFall

Your really good John.
Nicole.
Posted 11/28/2004 3:26 PM by Pledge_Nico

There IS a girl waiting for you to notice her.... There ARE girls there are girls waiting for you to come back there are girls waiting for you to stop wishing death upon yourself, wishing they could ie with you, wishing they could be near you or atleast a couple thousand miles closer...

There is a girl by the window
There is a girl in dispare
There is a girl with a rope round her neck
There is a girl made to care

This little girl has no hope left
This little girl's scared to die
This little girl wasn't made to forget
This little girl's ment to cry

That little girl is alone now
She's been alone fo a while
That little girl who is 15 years old
You made that little girl smile
Posted 1/10/2005 11:23 PM by CrimsonPoetry

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Posted 8/31/2005 2:12 PM by In_Relief